Leland,
Today is your 6 month Angelversary. It’s so hard to believe that 6 months have gone by since you had to go. Dad and I still miss you terribly and there are days that both of us still get choked up and cry because of what happened to you. We wish there was more we could have done but your body needed to rest.
This Christmas was hard for me. I cried Christmas Day because Lucian was being a total brat (more like an a$$hole). I had to go and cry in the bathroom until I could pull myself together to face the family. I know Lucian was just really excited over having all the kids there and he didn’t understand. He thought it was play time but his play can get rather rough and Christmas morning was not the time for that. We decided not to have the big Christmas meal at our house this year because I couldn’t put the extended family through Lucian’s antics and I couldn’t bring myself to lock him away in the crate away from everybody. So we had our dinner at Granny’s house this year. I sure missed your calm and loving demeanor.
Things got better after dad had to give Lucian an “attitude adjustment” and he got to dig into his present. Lucian and your dad have a special bond. Dad remarked the other day that we should have named him Shadow…since Lucian’s always right there with him. I just have to keep in mind that Lucian’s only 7 months old but he’s grown so much that he’s a puppy in an adult body.
I just wanted to let you know my sweet boy that we are getting by but you are always with us in our hearts. I hope you and all the other Tripawds up there got some tasty treats and fun toys for Christmas. Here’s some pictures of Lucian digging into his present and playing with a new toy.
Love always,
Mom
Awe…. sweet Lucian! I love that … you saw my forum post – A$$hole is how I would describe Jasper! It is so hard when they aren’t the well behaved dogs we are used to.
I know you miss Leland! We all do!!! He was a beautiful soul and his spirit lives on in everything you do! He is always with you. I am sure he (and my Shelby) are playing over the bridge laughing about the little ones here on earth with their parents.
I hope you managed to find some cheer on Christmas … it is always hard to get through the first milestone (big holiday). I shed a few tears on Christmas too!
Sending you much love and we navigate the new year together!
Alison with the Spirit of Shelby fur-ever in her heart (and little Jasper too)
I’ve run out of adjectives to describe all the wonderful things I’ve been reading. Sweet, lovely, wonderful, I just can’t find the word that describes how I felt reading your post. It spoke to my heart as if Harmony was right there nudging you on.
I was sitting here and imagining stroking Leland’s head. What a sweet, sweet boy.
Speaking of a$$holes, Meesha tried to dig up the backyard this morning. Now the carpet looks like I went with the darker neutral instead of the pretty off-white it used to be! Antics aside, every time I would start to feel sad, Meesha (and Melody) would do something completely off-the-wall and I would start laughing. It didn’t take me long to realize that was Harmony channeling through them.
I hope for you, my friend, that Lucian starts to hear and feel Leland’s voice. When he does, you will begin to chuckle.
xoxo
Oh I so know how you feel. Bosch & Sassy were never locked away from the family at Christmas time. They always got their gifts and got to lay down and chew & play.
Well, with 2 little kids trying to open presents the girls (Snickers, Jasmine & Bosch not a girl) were just getting too wild so they had to go to outside at least it wasn’t freezing like today. I am hoping by next year that they calm down a little. It makes me sad to have to do that.
I can imagine how calm Leland was & how hyper Lucian is. Miss him we get it. I love all the pictures.
Hugs
Michelle & Angel Sassy
Awww….I know this post was hard to do…it is hard to laugh and cry at the same time. But you had us all doing it!
“Attitude adjustment….big puppy in an adult body”…yel, we get it!
I can tell you this, with Merry Myrtle just now reaching the one year mark, I am starting to see signs of her being a little less “bull in a china shop”! Youngsters are an adjustment, as everyone has addressed in their replies!!
Leland KNEW you need a real “character” to help bring smiles in your life….and a BIG handsome character indeed!!
Lucian is soooo cute opening his presents…and Dad is soooo proud!! It was really loving to make sure Lucian was able to hav his first Christmas with his family and not shoved away. But yo are so loving, that’s no surprise how you handled it!
I KNOW your heart still aches for Leland….it was all so unfair. Leland knows you did everything for him and he needed to be free again so he could be Leland again…any you gave him that gift.
But Leland is alive here with us, with people who got to know his courage, his bravery, his determination, and his lpve for you and your love for him! We will NEVER let him be forgotten!! His life mattered to us all!!
And we got to know what a great sense of humor he has…otherwise he wouldn’t have sent you Lucian!!!!
Thank you for your wonderful blog today andnyour delightful pictures!
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We love you and are sooooooo fortunate to be included in your circle of compassion!
Sally and Alumni Happy Hannah and Merry Myrtle too!