My husband and I have been keeping ourselves busy outside doing some much needed work today. Since everything that had started with Leland we kind of let things go around the outside of the house aside from keeping the grass mowed. Well we were taking a break and sitting under Leland’s favorite tree. I said “this was Leland’s sort of day” there’s a cool breeze, the sun is shining, and it isn’t humid. Just the sort of weather he loved…not to hot and not to cold. We were able to talk about him and his ways and smile. I was shocked we both didn’t break down and start crying as that’s all either of us has done when we talk about our boy. My husband made the comment “I can’t believe you almost had me talked into a cat all those years ago.” Before we had gotten Lucky back in April 1997 I had suggested a cat as I thought they would be easier to take care of. My husband is solely a dog person so we looked at dogs and cats. That’s when we came across Lucky at a shelter.
Well the surprising thing was my husband said “I know we’ll eventually have another dog. You have too much love to give to not have another one.” My husband has been pretty closed off about the subject and I’ve not even brought it up because of the saddness we’ve both been dealing with losing Leland. We sat under that tree and talked about whether we’d want another male or try a female this time. My husband said he likes having his boys “it’s a guy thing.” Then we started bouncing around ideas for names…we like unique names that aren’t heard often and they usually come from TV/Movies we’ve seen.
We both like the Sons of Anarchy show and Tig Tregger is my favorite character (yes he’s a little off and out there). I thought Tregger would be cool…my husband not so much. So that name was shot down. Then I mentioned Raylen (off Justified) and he thought that would be pretty cool. I also mentioned Klaus (The Originals vampire show) which my husband thought would be good even though he doesn’t watch vampire shows with me (that was what Leland and I did together in another room). The point of all this rambling is that we were able to talk about our boy and smile today and that we haven’t closed off our hearts to the possibilty of bringing another dog into our life to share our home with. Since we were able to do this today I think Leland may have been letting us know that things will be ok.
Yes, Leland was with you today and he made his presence kmown. I think the reason you kept coming up with all those great names was because he knows it will take at least TWO dogs to help fill the void!!
And give your hubby a nice hug for recognizing that you have so mmuch love to give! Have you read a Dog’s Last Will and Testament” that’s been posted on here? Do a search for on the site if you haven’t, I think you’ll like it.
I’m glad you and your husband were able to smile when thinking of your sweet boy today. That means the world to Leland to see you be able to push your grief aside, even if briefly, and let the happy memories you shared come shining through.
Your post really touched my heart today…just as Leland continues to do so. That boy’s earth journey was way too short, but man oh man, he sure did have a huge impact on all of us and everyone he ever met!
I’m so glad you are continuing to stay connected. We are all family here and we understand the depth of loss you are feeling. We also understand the bliss of immersing yourself in all the wonderful memories you created with Leland!
Cannot wait to see what dog Leland picks out for you…or two…and their names!!
Sending you both hugs!
Sally and Happy Hannah
Your post was beautiful. Leland is definitely sitting next to both your sides. As Sally said kudos to your husband, and we all know he has as much love for another baby.
Sending you hugs and smiles
Esther and her Snoop